monday blues.

it's 1.10am on a monday morning. boo. school has officially started. no more 3 mths hols anymore. :( back to studying n printing/photostating notes and doing tutorials. YAWN.

i'm still wondering what to add for my 6th module. nio's asking me to take Logic with her n dom. it's a philo module. YUCKS. but then again, i'm desperate for an UE. this one seemed pretty easy to pass. 40% take home test/essay and 60% final paper mcq open bk. but if i S/U this means i HAVE to study for understanding medications. oh maaan. the lecture notes for that module is out already. was looking through it at jerm's hse that day and it's damn alot to memorize. he was trying to teach me though. but i was falling asleep. whooops.

plus Logic is on mondays 4-6 n it's my only free dayyyyy. then again i have to come sch for gym so maybe i'll just take it la. which means school everyday. BOO. most days are pretty short. just come to school for like 1 lecture although it's 3 hrs straight that kind. thurs is my supposedly most busy day. 9-12pm then 3-5pm. zzzz. somehow my days doesn't seem so pack coz out of my 6 modules (if i DO take logic), 4 of them have no tutorials so it's just 3 hrs straight. quite good la. save time also. dun have to separately bid for tutorial slots and have funny timetables just coz i need to squeeze in some stupid 1 hr tutorial somewhere. Oh and 4 out of my 6 modules will be open book too. oh man. dunno good or bad. sometimes i do well in open bk sometimes i don't. n 2 of my lvl 4 mods are actually open bk. how funky. maybe it's good also la. since i have 6 mods, open bk will lessen my load. plus i seem to have a few overseas comp to go for this sem so might be kinda busy training up. shall see how la. this sem must be more discipline! study and train. wheeee. boring life but i like. no obligations to anybody whatsoever. just me, myself and i. that's quite a first. haven't felt like this since my MGS days.

did 20km again for marathon training this morning. my ass hurts man but it's getting less painful. as in mentally painful. not physically. suprisingly doing long distances isn't as tiring as sprints. i mean ya my arms feel tired and achy but i'm not like panting and out of breath. k2 with nio seemed a little off again. abit slow today leh. damn sian la paddle tog so long still got problems and differences. somehow our strokes seemed to be gettin worse. bleh i wanna paddle my k1. quite worried coz selection for the world champs in perth is this coming sunday. not that im dying to go but i think mr goh wouldnt want us to be tooo slow too. hur hur.

anyway, drove to gao's house last nite ar around 11pm coz he was supposedly feeling sad. in the end when i got there he say he n reina ok already. nah bei. waste my petrol. ended up using his ibook to chat on msn. hur hur. was talking to jeremy n complaining that gao's hse damn far n i have to go drive all the way home n there's like training early the next day then he asked if i wanted to stay over at his place. hmmm. not in the sleazy way la. i think coz that day when i was at his place we watched shows till around 1+am n his mom asked if i wanted to stay over n sleep in his sister's room. i declined of coz. felt damn weird la. not like we're tog so abit wrong to stay. but i think coz sunday morning we have trainings at 8am at macritchie n he stays like 5 mins away so he thought it would be more convenient for me if i stayed. oh well. shall see how. i still feel kinda unsure of what i'm feeling towards him. i totally do not want this whole thing to be a rebound. it's just damn bad la. when i like a person i really wanna make sure my feelings are geunine and see it working out. i wouldnt wanna get tog with someone just for a fling or coz im feeling lonely. i would want feelings between us to be real.

n this keen called last nite. supposed to ask me abt lost then end up throwing accusations at me again abt the whole jeremy issue n me not waiting. i mean like SERIOUSLY. wait n do wat?? to watch him walk down the wedding aisle ar?? SIAO. if 6 mths was really such a great deal i can jolly well wait 6 mths to just shut him up. then i told him i wanted to sleep n he's like don't u dare hang up on me. and we went on argueing n suddenly he just went aiyah whatever la ok then click.

asshole. ask me dun hang up on him then he hangs up on me. n he still wanna make noise abt me being double standard. wtf.

whatever la can't be bothered.

then i was nice enuf to msg him just now n ask if he wanted lost today. coz apparently he deleted them by accident or something and since he burnt them for me i felt bad la so i thought i should return him or something n let him download it back to his comp. but he had no decency to reply. n i found out coz he was out with her. sheeesh. then he msg me online n told me its ok he'll get it from gao instead. ok lor. for his info gao's lost is totally wiped out. somehow i just get this feeling that he's back to this whole avoiding business. so be it then. honestly i'm tired of him being so back n forth. one min dun mind talking next min he wanna avoid. siao. he thinks i'm desperate to see him or wat. seriously i should just stop being nice n ignore him too.

bah. enuf abt him. seriously. i've had enough.

junior actually smsed n ask if i was ok. apparently he heard keen got a gf n wanted to see if i was feeling fine. i wonder who he heard from. looks like it's no big secret anymore. anyway he's quite sweet la. he say he'll intro some of his nice, cute friends to me. hahaha. so retarded. sigh i miss my ac friends. it's nice to know they still care :)

watched wedding crashers today with jerm. he's actually been quite sweet lately. last night after dinner with the team i felt like eating tang yuan so he brought me to clementi to eat. n coz he parked at some hdb near the overhead bridge to my house i told him don't need to drive me home i can just walk. so he offered to walk me home. n he actually wasn't too keen on watching wedding crashers coz he thought it looked dumb but decided to watch with me today after training. it's damn funny la. it started off quite boring but it picks up after that. the female lead is damn chioooooo!

think we're gonna catch charlie n the chocolate factory with his friends on tuesday after the ndp run. see how la i got 10am class on wednesday morning. boooo.

n that guy from liquid kitchen is totally harassing me. calling me n smsing me non stop. wah lau. pissing me off.

some guys are just damn annoying.

today my mom talked to me AGAIN abt my r/ship. aiyoh. she's damn kaypoh la. keep asking abt me n keen. in the end i just told her keen got gf already so she shud stop bugging me abt him. n she's like "SO FAST??" then i told her 6 mths liao la normal lor.

n then i could see it coming.

"then u n that doctor guy leh?"

"huh nothing la good friends lor"

"how can good friends so long. he not serious or u not serious?"

"aiyah not say i desperate for a boyfriend wat."

"eh once u start working hard to find boyfriend u noe coz everyone will be so busy working."

"orh. but that's next yr wat. anyway doctors very busy la i don't like"

AND THEN she goes on to tell me about her colleague who has a doctor husband and is coping well and how they understand each other's job scope n all.

HUHHHH.

my mom's mad. i'm still single n there she is telling me about her colleague and her husband.

i'm just gonna ignore her.

hungry. shall cook myself some maggi mee.