when u least expect it..

2 nights ago, gujin threw a bomb at me. he called me and confessed that he likes me. and i'm like in shock la. tried very hard to remain normal and even made jokes out of it so that he won't feel so pai seh. i mean it's always easier to be at the receiving end than the one telling the person u like him/her. i can imagine how he feels man. but i admire his courage la. of all the guys who liked me, he's the 2nd one who dares to tell it in my face. the 1st being tim john. but that's a diff story coz i think he's not the shy type. i could tell it took alot of courage for gujin to admit he had feelings for me. the rest of the other guys just do it in indirect ways (eg. thru friends, giving little gifts, being touchy etc). even keen did it thru an indirect method by holding my hands in the cinema. geeez. come to think of it, i think gao actually told me in my face too. hahaha.

anyway i felt really bad and i didn't know how to reject him. so i told him to gimme awhile to digest and i'll talk to him abt it again. so yah, i was talking to jerm abt it the next nite (ie last nite) online and we decided that i shall just tell gujin i'm seeing someone from the team. i felt really bad la. n he was really nice about it also. he actually did guess it was jeremy and actually wish me all the best. bleh. n i could tell he was really sincere abt it. sometimes i wonder if it's true that nice guys finish last. gujin is a genuinely nice guy. he's really sweet and not too bad looking. working with a stable income and all. i mean seriously, what's not to like? but somehow i just find myself unable to reciprocate. n him being so understanding abt the whole thing makes me feel even worse. oh well.

sigh.