drained.

it's 1.32 am and i'm still awake.

seems pretty normal but trainings have been making me really sleepy and if i had bathed early, i would be happily sleeping by now. but NOoooooooooo i have to wait for my stupid hair to dry. stupid long hair. i should just shave it all off one day. then i wouldn't have to comb my hair ever again. errr. not that i comb much anyway :p

surprisingly school hasn't been a mad rush since i came back from Perth. i thought i would be drowning in my work. on the contrary, i haven't done much at all. WHOOOPS. it's officially 1 mth to my first paper. time to get my ass down to some serious studying. but i would have to sadly complete:

1 presentation (which i kinda started)
1 essay (which i'm still clueless)
1 project (which i kinda started too)
1 computing test (which is on the 4th nov and they're testing the ENTIRE syllabus. n the exam paper itself is on the 21st. how weird. but good in some way then i won't have to pia much nearing the exam)

all these will only be out of my hands only on the 8th which gives me officially TWO weeks study break. wah lau. dunno enough or not. thank goodness 2 of my modules i have been reading/studying pretty much consistently so that's 2 less modules to worry about. one of which is my medications module. but then again, my 40% test was a miserable B. i was counting on this module for my freaking A this sem and now i have to work thrice as hard for my remaining 60% to pull it up. its damn gross can. there i was learning all the names and how the disease works n blahblah and they tested on GENERAL stuff which i conveniently didn't bother knowing much. BASKET.

i shall not give up. xiaohui is a fighterrrr!

RIGhhhhhhhhhhhht.

i'm so full of shit sometimes. then again, doing too well isn't good coz one might just get complacent. if i were to get an A i'll probably be thinking "oh yayyy that's 40% of A which means my remaining 60% no need to study so hard. WHeeeeee!"

ahahahhaa. i'm amused at how my mind works.

ANYWAAAY. i'll show those stupid science students that i can kick their asses in science modules. BLEH!

ok enough.

this week was rather...forgettable. i can't remember what i did. yesterday's training was supposed to be 16km but i dunno why i went ahead and did 20km. it was traumatic to learn that we have to do another 20km for today's training. that's like 40km in 2 days!! i'm surprised my butt hasn't gone flat from sitting 4hrs+ in a boat. 20km doesn't seem that torturous anymore and it is incredibly boring. macritchie scenary is....boring. just trees and trees and occasional monkeys. not very exciting though. where are the ducks and swans and pelicans!!! *booohoo*

i miss perth already. i miss the weather and the friendly people :(

i've been seeing jeremy everyday this week. actually we've been seeing each other everyday for the last 1mth+ (yayy it's our 2 mths this friday so exciting!)

i feel like i can't get enough of him still but yet i have this fear of becoming too emotionally and physically dependent on him. oh MANN.

ok i bet it's just pms. my thing is ONE WEEK LATE. BOOOO :(

but spending time with him is pure bliss. even if it's just bumming at each other's place. although we do entertain ourselves in other ways. hur hur.

RIGHhhhhht. i'm talking nonsense again.

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.

i miss my baby already. i wanna hug my koala to sleep :(

oh did i mention that i hate cockroaches?? THEY ARE USELESS. i don't understand the reason for their existence in this world. they're as redundant as houseflies. i don't see how they can help the ecosystem in any way.

bbaaaaaaaah.