it's raining, it's pouring.....

....if only i'm snoring away on my bed.

but NOOooooooooooooooo. here i am typing my stupid presentation.

i can't hold it in any longer.

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I HATE SCHOOL AND I HATE PRESENTATIONS AND I HATE PROJECTS AND I HATE ESSAYS AND I HATE TESTS AND EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHYYYYYY does the school enjoy torturing us.

CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY!!!!!?????

ok i'm officially stressed. n it's not like i'm sitting here kao behing and not doing any work. i AM doing.

and doing.

and doing.

and doing.

AND IT'S NEVER ENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and DON'T COME AND TELL ME "if u got so much work then still blog!"

why? cannot issit?? it's my only outlet to SCREAM AND WHINE in the middle of the night when everyone's sleeping.

i would very much like to call jeremy AND SCREAM INTO HIS EAR.

but i shall spare him. cos he's sleeping. and it's not everyday he gets a holiday and have a chance to sleep so i shall be nice.

BOOOOOOOOOOO. BUT I WANNA CALL HIM AND WHINE AND CRY AND SCREAM AND KAO BEH. BOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO.

and i have training at fucking 9am tmr. it's FUCKING EARLY OK.

if i don't go, i feel guilty.
if i go, i will think about my unfinished work.

HOW LIKE THAT!!!?? YOU TELL ME LAR!!!!

i hate making decisions like that. i used to think i can cope with training and studies.

BUT I CAN'T!!!!!!

FUCK. i hate feeling so weak and defeated.

yah yah i know i'm not the only one in this position who has to deal with studies and blahblahblahblah. there are TONS of people who are in the same position as me.

well, good for them. i'm VERY HAPPY FOR THEM that they can cope.

but i can't. THEN HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

my 5 mins of break is up.

back to my FUCKING presentation.