nua-ish..

my body's really feeling damn nua. even running the pgp route on friday didn't feel satisfying.

today was a really weird day. i was feeling ultra sian the whole day. damn restless and stonified.
i didn't go for training but i met them for lunch. and somehow, the feeling of not training, but hearing about what happened during training gave me a very weird feeling.

even i can't seem to decipher what i was feeling.

basically, i was hearing stuff about who traumatized who, who was traumatizing, a certain k2 from a certain school damn fast, who's damn scary/bian tai, who's damn fast, who's not very fast, who's dunno what and dunno what and whatever, etc.

and i just felt like saying:

THEN HOWWWWWWWWWWW??

i mean seriously, what can u do?

i can offer u 3 advices though:

1. quit

2. give in to the fact that u're slow and train harder than the bian tai (although not everyone can be as bian tai as the bian tai so this option is not very feasible)

3. paddle with a slowpoke like me and feel good abt urself again

not too bad advice right.

disclaimer: before anyone get offended or think i'm directing it at u, i'm NOT.

coz frankly, i was like stoning throughout and i can't even remember who was talking to me or who said what. whatever i just wrote was in response to the snippets of conversation i overheard.

so there u go.

had steamboat dinner at the bf's place coz it's the last day of CNY or something like that. ordinarily i would have enjoyed steamboats but the siansation still stuck by me so for most of the dinner i was just eating beancurd and vegetables (so healthy!)

and i actually felt a little sad that i couldn't have steamboat with my family coz my mom's not out yet. booooooooooo.

anyhow, i think the bf was slightly bothered abt how sian i was feeling and forced me to talk about it.

which is actually good coz i felt much better crying it out. wahahha i'm such a crybaby. like what else is new. i think i will cry too if u dangle a cockroach or beetle in front of me.

but he's damn funny la. he was asking why i dowan to talk to him about it. and i'm like:

"but i'm alwaaayyyssssssssss whining and crying about the same stuffffffffffffffffffffffffffff!!"

and he's like:

"then i'll alwaaayyyssssssss cheer u up the same way lohhhhh!"

or something like that la. so sweet right. hurhur.

oh and it has been proven the sun can kill cancer cells!!! let's all roast ourselves silly.