booooooooo

finding a job is such a hassle.

you don't know whether to piroritize the job prospects, the job scope, or the pay.

ultimate sianism.

i've always thought i wanted to work in an events company, to be an events executive and not be desk-bounded.

but when the position is actually offered and the job scope laid out right in front of you, you realize it doesn't seem so appealing after all.

i haven't really been actively sending out resumes, and even those companies i send out to are medium sized companies. i'm not really into big organizations. or at least, i rather start off small first because i don't really know what i wanna do just yet. but of cos i hope to work in related fields that would benefit my future career on a higher level.

and the million dollar question is: what exactly is my future career like?

i haven't really boil down to the specifics, but it has always been along the lines of PR, marcoms, corporate comms, events management, media relations yadah yadah. it's all somewhat inter-related la. and i have no idea where to start off with.

the events executive position sounded really like something i've always wanted, but all of a sudden, i don't feel too willing to give up my weekends and public hols. with the bf already so busy, me being equally busy is going to be rather emotionally damaging on the r/ship.

i'm not exactly into a high flying job, at least not for now. i rather a job with a comfortable salary, but at the same time i still wanna have time for my family, the bf and leisure paddling. and when i mean comfortable, it means enough for me to spend and save reasonably.

so anyway, between a job with a relatively high pay and less freedom, and a job with a not so high pay but relatively more freedom, i find myself inclined towards the latter.

am i crazy or wat.

actually my mom rather i take the lower paying one too. she thinks sales and marketing have more room for development in the future whereas events exec is a relatively stagnant position.

or maybe i should listen to miss quek, reject both and continue looking for other jobs. but the waiting for interviews is going to bore me to death. and my parents might just cut me off after june so if i don't get a job by then, i might actually starve to death too.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

OR maybeeeeeee i should wait till thurs and see my results. i might not even get to graduate after all with the possibility of failing stupid perfumes and cosmetics. BAaaaaaaaaaah.

ORRRR maybe i should go for the teaching interview. but they offered me english lang and literature. like HUHHHHH.

i think moi engrisshh iz not goods enuff to teecchhh lorz. hows lydat?

so anywaayyyy. i've got a date with the bf tmr. yayyyy. hotcakes and movie tmr!! i lurveeeeeeeee hotcakes. and i can't decide whether to skip training tmr or not. i've been so nuaaaa lately. (yay ben we can grow fat and fair together hurhur)

ok sleeep.