friday blues.

zouk on wednesday was kinda....unexciting. i felt like an old woman amidst the throngs of pubescents. come next yr, i'll be turning 25. eeeps. and in 5 yrs, i'll be 30.

OMG. time to plan for my retirement.

it's a friday but i feel i'm in a state of dismal. isn't it supposed to be TGIF? somehow i don't really feel very thankful for this day.

maybe because come monday, it'll be my mom's 49th day. i still miss her terribly and wonder how she's doing from time to time. which is kinda silly cos on one hand, i believe there's life after death, yet on the other, i feel that when u're dead, u're dead. that's it. period.

or maybe because mimi sun's on call. on a friday night. not a very good way to start the weekend. i hate the govt for overworking the doctors. they obviously do not give a damn abt the benefits of the patients. how the hell do they expect doctors to be able to concentrate on the patients after not sleeping through the night. it's ridiculous. sometimes i think half the patients that die are due to errors made by tired doctors.

or maybe i just feel life's a joke and the big man up there's laughing at us all for being such gullible idiots.

oh well. it's one of those days, where u feel dark clouds hovering above u, refusing to go away, and reading supposedly encouraging bible quotes just makes me cringe. AND reading this blog makes me feel even more depressed, knowing that life can be so cruel.

when will 2008 ever arrive. yawn.