driving is therapeutic..

wheee. ive never driven so much ever since my accident and i'm startin to fall in love with driving again! :)

i thought i would never get past my fear. i remember when i first had my accident, i went back to driving within weeks and it was damn freaky la. every car that comes near me (eg driving past me) i would FREAK OUT. yup, dats how pathetic i was. and then i had the whole insurance problem which didn't allow me to drive for a year. i was pretty fine with it actually coz i wasn't really looking forward to driving. and most of my friends had cars so i had fun being driven around.

anyway, my ban got lifted around march but i didn't start driving too. i drove ONCE with my mom and my brother home from school and it was still pretty scary. it was only that night when gao and keen came over after sending yellow off and forced me to drive, where i actually thought driving was pretty fun again. then the next time i drove was last nite when i went supper with pauleon. my first time ALONE when i drove to pick him up. i actually felt pretty confident. wheeeee! but too bad the night was spoilt by the fucking $50 coupon. BAHHH. i feel lazy to write the stupid appeal letter. but then again, $50 is freaking alot.

and then today i picked keen up, then gao, and drove alll the way to the airport. parking was pretty disastrous though. sending lam off was....boring. AHahhaha. maybe coz we knew he would be back soon. drove gao back to reina's, went for supper with keen n sent him home. so yah, i was actually driving quite alot. still not very smooth but i think im improving! :) im not very good at cutting lanes coz my estimation of the next lane is damn bad la and i dunno how far behind the car is. hur hur.

sigh. sending keen home n listening to the sad songs playing on my CD was a little weird. i dunno what i'm feeling. melancholy? nostalgia? i dunno. oh well. the drive home alone was....therapeutic. i actually blasted the sad love songs and took a long, slow drive home. sigh. i wanted to drive by myself a little longer, but petrol was going down quite quickly n i didn't really want my dad screaming at me. i dun think he was v happy with me taking the car and driving to the airport myself, but at least i came home safely. so yayy. i proved to him i can pretty much drive again. maybe coz at nite less cars la. daytime with double or even triple the amount of cars around me i might just faint in the car. hur hur.

training wasn't too bad today. did k2 and clocked timing of 2min14sec for 500m. and dat was after doing 5x1000m. not too bad la. just that me n nio started argueing in the k2 coz we had a little disagreement on which side the boat was tilting. she started tearing and so did i. haha. so silly.

matric fair briefing tmr, marathon training on fri, sat and sunday. yay. it should help occupy my mind then i wouldn't have to think so much. i'm starting to like paddling long distances. today dom joined us for marathon training. i dunno whether dom's gonna join the team or not but it's damn funny la. the national marathon team is made up of 3/4 NUS people. the rest are like 2 NTU girls, 1 SP guy and 1 SP girl. ahaha. we told mr goh he can practically be the NUS coach already. hur hur. but he's really nice. i prefer him to the national sprint team coach. n coz he knew that most of us have k2 events for our ncc competition next weekend, he's gonna let us train sprints during training instead of distances. how sweeeet.

oh and this stupid keen and gao thinks im mad talking so much abt cars. SHEEESH. i've always liked cars. n it's quite fun to be able to recognise some of the cars and name them instead of just pointing them out on the roads and go " there!!! that yellow car!! i like!!!!". n everyone would be like huhhhhh which oneeeee.

ok i need to bathe.