SLEEPY.

had a major arguement with my elder brother over the car on thurs night. all because i wanted to use the car to meet keen and he wanted to use the car to meet his gf.

i think coz he's so used to taking the car as and when during my 1 year break that he wasn't expecting to fight with anyone for the car. so he takes it for granted that when he needs the car, he gets it. ass. no lor. now i can drive again i think it's only fair we compromise. BLEH. in the end my parents weren't too happy and my dad kept the car keys. so nobody got to use in the end. booo. n my brother thinks it's my fault. BLEH. i DID give him the car in the end but he had to come into my room and scream at me. serves him right.

BAH.

anyway, watched The Island last night with the jeremy and pauleon. after the show i got 18 missed calls from keen. and he started going all paranoid abt me n jeremy and how unfair it is for his gf if he continues seeing me. HUH??

SHEEESH. he's being a pig can. he's the one rushing into a r/ship and now he gets all pissed with this whole me and jeremy issue. telling me how jeremy's playing with my feelings and all that. frankly, i don't care. i mean i'm not serious about anything now coz i'm not gonna rush into anything when my heart's still vulnerable. ok that sounds damn corny. maybe not vulnerable, but let's just say i'm not ready to give it to anyone yet. and then he tells me how he doesn't wanna see me anymore coz it's unfair to his sweet and innocent gf who might get hurt and collaspe and faint in a heap if she finds out he still sees me.

*roll my eyes*

i'm not like desperate to see him and it was him who has been asking me out. now he turns around n make it sound like i asked him out.

just coz i'm a canoeist and i appear more gung ho doesn't mean i don't have feelings and won't get hurt too ok. bloody hell.

and then he starts telling me abt his nightmare that me n jerm got together so he's feeling moody. sheeeesh. i then msg him later and asked what he was doing.

n guess what. NO REPLY. totally ignore me.

and i can figure out why. coz he's out with his gf.

so thats how it works la? when he's alone and thinking of ridiculous things, he can gimme 18 missed calls and start accusing me of dating jeremy. then when he's out with his gf, he HAPPILY ignores me coz hey, there's someone to occupy his mind wat.

whatever ok. i'm not a subsitute for him when his gf is busy. i think he should just wake up his idea.he thinks it's unfair for his gf. ok lor. if that's the case i'm fine with not meeting him anymore. besides, im thinking of doing 6 modules next sem. still thinking la dunno yet. but i wanna occupy myself and study really hard. pull my cap even higher coz i think next year (my last sem) is gonna be quite tough and i might not do too well with all the sucky modules. so this sem better study harder n pull up. gonna aim for 4.3 if i can. if i cannn.

anyway, yesterday after the show, jerm sent me home and we had quite a good talk. not that kind of talk about us or whatever. basically just talking. i think it's really fun crapping with him coz he's so full of shit. he just makes me laugh :)

oh well.

training tmr at 8am. i think we're gonna paddle 20km. fuck sia. my ass's gonna hurt again.

and i'm freaking sleepy. i slept at 6am can?planning my stupid modules and timetable. BAH. i saw the head of department last friday and she wasn't very helpful about my queries. i think i might have to call the department on monday and speak to them again. boo. such headache. i refused to take a 7pm class. it's so dumb to not have school one whole day and then leave the house when the sun sets for classes. really no motivation lor. i rather not. and i refused to take this module by an indian lecturer who can't teach for nuts coz he's such an airhead. i took this module under him once and got a freaking B-. NO WAY MAN. i can't afford B-s this sem. i need all B+s!and above of coz. so no modules for me that doesn't motivate me to go for classes or are taught by dumbasses with funny accents.

my eyes r closing.