random thoughts.

ok i ought to be sleeping but i can't help but blog this down b4 i forget.

he says he doesn't hate me but hate himself for doing all these. he says he doesn't wanna hurt both me and her so he decided to cut himself off from the both of us.

somehow i don't seem to buy that.

seriously, whateverrrr.

if this is his indirect way of telling me to bug off so he can concentrate on his r/ship with her, by all means.

i actually deleted him off my msn coz i knew he blocked me. but i decided not to be so childish about it so i added him back. if he's ready to talk then he'll talk to me. but by then i'm not sure sure how i'll feel anymore.

as much as i would like to forget him, it just seems hard. i need timeeee.

oh well. past 1am. i need to sleep. n jerm didn't offer to fetch me. hur hur. i guess he can't possibly be fetching me all the time. reallie quite waste petrol and his money got stolen today so i think he's feeling kinda upset.

ok. which means i have to wake up earlier to take a bus. yawn.

i love this song. somehow i feel myself relating to it in some strange way.

Against All Odds - Steve Brookstein

How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath
with you, ooh-ooh
You're the only one
who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain
and even shared the tears
You're the only one
who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now,
well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds
and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one
who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now,
cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you,
is all I can do and that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now,
cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take
Take a look at me now