yay i drove!

met lam and gao for dinner coz i didn't wanna be alone at home. and i found myself pouring out my emotions n whatever that has been inside me for 6 mths to them. n once again, it was an all too familiar scenario. when i was going through the candace incident, these two were the exact people whom i turned to and confided in. :(

thank god for friends like them and i'm so glad lam's back. i miss going out with them. for awhile i totally withdrew myself from them becoz keen was meeting up with them alot more than me n i wasn't ready to face up to keen yet.

but somehow after that faithful day at liquid kitchen when i bumped into him and he walked away thinking i didn't say hi (when i did), many emotions came rushing back and i realized how much i missed him.

but being the stubborn brat and the amount of pride i have, i refused to show anything. i just wanted to show him i was strong n was going on well.

but lately, everything just seemed to be crumbling. every single emotion that i've been storing up is just waiting to explode :(
*sigh* fucking painful. oh well.


on a high note, i drove again today! :)
so happy. lam, gao and derrick came over to my place to accompany me. it was really sweet of them la. then we decided to go for supper at holland v and i took the car. stupid lam took xiaoming's helmet and wore it. asshole. he was sitting at the back and blocking my view with his gigantic head and helmet. anyway it was fun la. i miss driving. other than my poor estimation when it comes to parking, and my lack of coordination, i think i'm pretty ok la. at least i'm not such a nervous wreck anymore. can't wait to start driving beyond the west area. maybe one day i can just pop down to keen's place n surprise him. haha.

bleh. who am i kidding. why would he wanna take a camry when he can sit a cool peugeot with lydia. oh well. i've decided it's a sucky car. my fave car now is bmw 6 series/yellow tuscani or mazda 3. mazda 3 is like seriously everywhere. especially the red ones. damn alot! but the yellow one pwettier :)

sigh. as i'm typing i can't help but think about keen. it's 2am n he's not online. prob out with herrr making out or something. bleh. waiting for someone who has given up on me.

maybe i should really just move on. i feel like i've been holding back coz deep down i still had some hope left. but since he has moved on, maybe i should really start dating without having to feel guilty.

yoke hian said he'll introduce me to this fellow dboater. haha. erm. i want someone from...chess club! wahhahha.

i really wish i could be back in sec sch. single and carefree, not knowing the pain that love brings along.