nolstalgia..

6.04am.

no i didn't stay awake till now. i actually fell asleep while waiting to bathe. 3rd time in a row this week already. whooops. but the past few times i would wake up at 4+ am to bathe n go back to sleep. this time round i woke up at 5 plus. oh man. i can hear the birds chirping outside already.

so here i am blogging at the wee hrs of the morning listening to sappy songs from michael learns to rock. i dunno why but i downloaded a couple of their songs this morning. hmmm.
currently on repeat mode in my itunes are these 2 songs :

1. 25 minutes
2. Love is all around me (ok this is by wet wet wet and not michael learns to rock. hur hur)

feeling kinda nolstalgic suddenly. i dunno why. must be the sms from keen. i woke up and saw an sms from him asking if i'm still awake. i'm still wondering if i should reply him. i dunno if i'm ready for another round of back forth questionings and accusations and "why are u doing blah and blah with jeremy...."

but then again the message sounded pretty harmless. oh well. missed him suddenly. and the 2 songs are not helping much. song no. 1 is a really sad song. think it's about this guy who was too late in stopping a girl from getting married to someone else when he finally decided it was her that he really loves. how tragic. losing someone forever coz u were a mere 25 mins too late :(

ok la i think 25 mins is quite alot. maybe 25 seconds will be even more tragic. ok out of point.

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25 minutes - Michael Learns To Rock

After some time, I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her weddingdress
but she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses
all the time but this is
25 minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are
25 minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
wishing me back to the time when we were more than friends
But still I see her in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her weddingdress
but she cried while she was saying this

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses
all the time but this is
25 minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are
25 minutes too late

Out in the streets
places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head
still I can hear the words she said

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses
all the time but this is
25 minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are
25 minutes too late

I can still hear her say.......

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*sob*
how sad :(

song no. 2 makes me sad too coz it reminds me of the christmas version from Love Actually which i watched with keen. it's one of my fav show coz it was such a heartwarming love story, or stories. makes me warm and fuzzy inside each time i watch it. sigh.

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Love is all around me - Wet Wet Wet

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me
And so the feeling grows

It’s written on the wind
It’s everywhere I go, oh yes it is
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show

You know I love you, I always will
My mind’s made up by the way that I feel
there’s no beginning, there’ll be no end
‘cause on my love you can depend

I see your face before me
as I lay on my bed
I kinda get to thinking
of all the things you said, oh yes I did

You gave your promise to me
and I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me
in everything I do, oh yes I do

You know I love you, I always will,
my mind’s made up by the way that I feel
there’s no beginning, there’ll be no end
‘cause on my love you can depend

Got to keep it moving
Oh It’s written in the wind oh everywhere I go, yeah,
oh well so if you really love me, love me, love me
come on and let it show
come on and let it show
come on and let it come on and let it (come and let it show, baby)

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boo :(

ok enough. i shall only allow myself to be sad once in a while but not indulge in it. not very good. i am STRONG. *repeat 10 times*

actually i think i'm a much stronger and indepedent person now as compared to 2 yrs back.

enough of memories. let's see if i can recall what i did today. hmmm.
basically nuaed the whole morning and early afternoon away and doing my bidding. btw i got my medications gem for a freaking 563 pts. wah lau my remaining 100+pts dunno can take what other gems man. bah.
dom and jiansheng came my place around 4 to nua too coz they were bored and were playing pool at west coast recrea b4 that. damn funny la they came and drank beer and played grand theft auto on my comp. geez. left around 5pm for training.

today's marathon training was quite slack. mr goh jus made us paddle up and down to work on stroke techniques. coz we just had a comp over the weekend so he wanted to let us rest. how sweet. i like slack trainings. n he wants me n nio to do 20km in a freaking T2 if we're really going for the m'sia comp. fuck sia. my ass sure pain one lor. and it's bloody heavy! bah.

went holland village for zi cha after that to celebrate zhihao's birthday. had cake at nydc after that. it was quite fun actually. the team is starting to make fun of me n jeremy and somehow i feel quite weird about it. like whenever we're going someplace to eat and we'll all separate to go into diff cars (jerm, shaun or dom's), everyone will avoid jerm's car and leave the 2 of us alone. n it's damn bloody obvious when they do that. roll my eyes can. n just now at nydc i was talking abt how i wanted the thai guys' photo, someone said "wah lau how can later jeremy not happy!"

errr. ohhhkay. i don't think jeremy heard but it's damn weird can. n at times someone else would make some comments about the both of us where we'll both hear it. i'll just go ooohhhkayyy whateverrr and he'll just keep quiet. but sometimes i'll wonder what's going through his head. i wonder if he feels as awkward as me. ok i shall stop trying to read his mind. dat pig.

he sent me home after that coz it ended abt 11+pm. no big deal actually coz hv is like on the way to my place. but on the way home we started talking about food and we were discussing about the food i don't like. basically raw or slimy food like sashimi and mussels turn me off. so he was saying he'll bring me on a food trip one day and force me to try food that i have phobia of. like escargots and clams and mussels and sashimi etc. eeeeyer. food trips like that i don't look forward to. haha.

gym tmr in school. no wait. gym later in school at 6pm. yawn. dunno swimming not. kinda lazy though. this whole week is so nua. not much trainings n i'm having fun bumming at home and waking up late w/out having to rush to mr at 9am. wheee.

but sch starts next week. booooo. so fast :(

6.45am. i shall force myself to sleep.