bidding REALLY sucksssss

cors is super slow now. bah. and i don't have enough pts to bid for 2 GEMS coz understanding medications is like freaking 400 pts now. was thinking of bidding for that AND food and health. but food and health also need at least 300 pts. BAHHHH.

looks like i can forget about my plan of bidding for 2 gems and appealing for a core. now i have to appeal for a gem instead. really hope they'll gimme the module i want man. :( really dowan to end up taking 6 mods next sem.

ARGHH. stupid CNM department. i dont understand why other departments have sooooo many level 4 modules to choose from and ours is so miserable. all the funny timings and horrible lecturers. if i had more options i wouldn't be having this headache now. fuck.

anyway, we're supposedly having some competition in malaysia on the last week of august. part of me feels like going for the experience but yet i'm not really keen on skipping school too. this sem my core modules are all seminar based. which means 3 hrs straight with tutorials. don't really wanna skip and be behind time time. boo :(

shaun actually asked me for keen's hp last nite coz he wanetd to check with the dboat captain if they were going. apparently they have dboat races too. but i think the captain didn't sound too interested in sending the team there. oh well. if they really go it means keen will probably go too. hmmm.

talked to jerm last nite on the phone about the m'sian comp. he most likely can't go coz it's even harder for him to zao his lessons. we ended up talking rubbish and talked like for 2 hrs plus? quite funny la coz we were basically crapping about everything. we were like talking on the phone and typing on msn and i started changing my msn photos and putting up pics of the thai guys. and he was like "can u not?"

wahahaha. what a cockster. i jus put them up anyway. i still dunno what i feel towards him. and at this rate, i know his feelings are not definite too. it's more of a sometimes i like sometimes i don't like feeling on his part. and for me, i still dunno. i'm just not ready for anything to happen now and i don't believe in rebounds coz the feelings just isn't true.
who noes i may be a rebound for him too. n i still think abt keen here and there. i decided to put back up the jigsaw puzzle. coz it's really pretty and i knew he spent a great deal of time and effort doing it when he was in the army.

oh well. AHHH. bidding sucks and the system is fucking slow.