dislocated shoulder :(

my shoulder popped out during a game of captain's ball yesterday before gym training. it's not exactly the first time it happened, but it was the first time that i felt paaaiiin. the pain didn't register for the 1st few mins, but my arm went numb and my fingers started trembling. it was kinda traumatizing.

and now my arm feels funny and it hurts when i raise it or bring it backwards. BOOOHOOOOOOOOOO :(

now i have a phobia of paddling halfway and my arm will pop out, dangle there while i capsize and drown because my leftover movable arm can't keep me afloat long enough for someone to rescue me. and no, i can't cling on to the boat cos i have this funny way of capsizing where i'll anticipate the capsize, jump out, and my boat remains upright and continues gliding away. hurrrrrrrr. and well, everyone noes my lifevest is just a decoy.

booooohoooooo. i'm gonna drown and get eaten alive by the man-eating monitor lizards at macritchie disguised as herbivores. anything THAT size can't possibly live on vegetables LOR!!! bluff me only. bleh.

i got a call for an interview with Mindef this thurs and friday. i have to take some 1 hr+ written test and a 3 hr psychometric test. WAH LAUuuuuuu. the thought of it makes me not wanna go. plus everyone seemed to be against me working there. that bad meehhh. work for garmen wat. stable income. hurhur.

so anyway, the bf is now sleeping on my sofa and i'm starving. but i shall be nice and not wake him up since he didn't have to, but woke up early anyway to give me and my mom a lift down to Mt E. awwwwwwwww. he looks a little funny all squashed up on my sofa like a foetus. teehee.

i'm bored and i'm wondering if i should paddle or rest my arm. boooo